so its a sunday today. and i got a english test tmr. so its not exactly a day u would expect me to type here. and not to mention that i have not been doing so for such a long time! haha...

anyway, im having a flue, and my stomache dont feel so good. thus its a good time to come and release all that fustration here!! haha..ok, maybe not to that extend. hmm, jus taken some medicine. hope i get better soon!! hee..

so wat am i here...i also dunno. juz felt like coming. haha. tmr got this english test, which i am so not confident in. dunno how!! hope i get to sit beside vince or miao so that i can copy!! hehe..well, i also no mood to study. dunno y, been feeling like this all sem. jia lat...cant seem to concentrate or put my heart into studying. this is bad news! argh...i think i am distracted...by all the prbs and stuff going round. hmm, i think part of me wants to go work liao..but the other wants to stay in sch. even my parents are asking me when i am coming out to work!! i think we juz need that extra income. well, i think the slide is still there...just that its a slow one. haiz...so i need to work to get income! holidays are coming..so i need to go find some money too!! haha.

sometimes i feel like i am alone...or maybe i juz dunno where i am or wat i am doing. ppl seem to be studying hard, getting results...well i am slacking..and not really bothering wat kinda results i am getting. the bo chap me is back!! and seeing ppl enjoying their cars, and eating good stuff, spending all that money, makes me feel sick. cos it reminds me of where i am today. oh yah, i also tot of soemthing. maybe why i dislike my car so much...is bcos, its the evidence of where i stand and who i am today. i dislike the position i am in now. the fact that i got to study hard, the fact i got to work to support the family as soon as i graduate, the fact that i got to give up my dreams to do so...the fact that i cant spend money as i like now...all these surrounds my life. and the fact that some how cant share all these with my friends is fustrating. i cant tell these to ppl, without them pitying me or sympathising me. i dun want ppl to pity me...and never want ppl to look down on me...so i choose not to say.

ok thats my life. yupz...life sux...big time. i cant even bring my gf these days...luckily she dont mind...for i really feel so bad...not giving her the best..and providing her the best. i hope life improves...soon.  ¶ 6:26 AM