harlow blog...its me. im back! haha..well well, been soooo long since i last did this. haha. everytime i come back, i wonder if anyone is actually still visiting this page to see if i ever update!! haha... =)

Well, exams are juz over, and my holidays have juz began! but its kinda short, cos school is starting in jan. means i got abt a month of holidays only. so, lets tok abt the exams first. i did study...but some how i feel that i wont do so well. in fact, i think i got a feelin i am gonna screw up on some papers. haiz...thats bad. there were some mods that i really couldnt understand. so....i think i am expecting my first C on the season or worst!! argh!! god help me!!! i juz hope i dun do too badly!! and guess wat, my exams are out on christmas day!!! thats bad!! hmm, dun think i will look at my results on that day...maybe will wait till christmas over then peek at it..hehe.

ok, so lets talk abt my life then. hmm, every things pretty alright. but....theres always a but. haha. my family is not doing so well at the moment...and this kinda bothers me. haiz...i think i shd go find so cash to support myself...but on the other hand, i am afraid my results will suffer..cos i am such a slow learner!! argh!! yah, dad's biz really reallybad...theres always the talk abt selling the house to rise the cash...and even the car is becoming such a burden. there goes all my dreams abt buying a second car...who knows, we might not even own a car at the end of the day!! then again, i think its so hard to sell our car anyway. dun think theres a market for that car of mine. haiz..and that bothers me too. toking abt the car. i was in the car in town one day..and was gonna pay the carpark fee using the cash card...and juz noticed that my car do not even have the automatic window function!! its really that lousy!!! argh...must manually use finger to press... =(

it all voice down to...being poor. yupz, i think i am pretty poor now. and i sometimes feel so peiseh that i still got to get money from mom and dad. haiz...prb. soon i might even lose the house i stay, and stay in some hdb flat...and the car. hmm, dun even want to think abt it. the only term i can find to describe my family, is downward mobility!! haha...got it from my soci class...soon i will no longer be in my social class...i wonder where i will end up. according to the book, we shd be stuck at some point, where we can not distinguish ourselves as we are not in the same position as before, nor some where that low. so we dunno where we stand...haiz. thats bad...opps, there i go again...typing out all those rubbish again. well, juz complaining..hee.

so, wat do i want then...easy, i want a car!! haha =P been watching initial d...some racing car anime. i love the cars man!! hee. it somehow make me realise that i really want to own a car...to call it my own, and to drive it with Pride and Passion. yah, thats wat the driver did in the show...he even cried for his car...thats the passion. and ppl say his car too old and too lousy, he proved them wrong. that was his pride. i see that in some of my friend's cars. but somehow, i dun not feel the same way abt my own car right now. no pride...and no passion. its juz a car that moves...nothing more. i want my CELICA!! haha...i will buy it one day...one day when i make my own money. =P

some how, i still feel kinda lost...in studies, in life. i feel we can only wait and see. i hope my situation improves...and my life improves. i wonder if we will ever have the financial means to get a second car...or maybe, juz to survive like before. my life is going to change once again i feel. it seems the most likely outcome...haiz. no more car...no more nice condo...but life goes on...and on and on...and one day, i will buy my own car.. =P wish me luck ppl!! hee...
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