Ryan's Thoughts...
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Harlow people! Happy New yr!! Haha...bet no one comes here anymore...but just in case anyone pops by...here's a bonus! jay chou's mtv!! haha...the mtv is really sweet!! haha..enjoy it k!!
Thursday, September 15, 2005
蔡淳佳>有一天我会 :
有些事我没说 但我有感觉 有些事我没说
但我知道结果 有些事我没说
但你有感觉 有些事我没说 但你知道结果
有一天我会 插上翅膀飞 有一天我会
张开双眼看 有一天我会 见到我的梦中有谁
有一天我会 飞过世界的背
当太阳升起的那一天 你再看我一遍
你将会发现我 所有的改变
有些事我没说 但我有感觉 有些事我没说
但我知道结果 有些事我没说
但你有感觉 有些事我没说 但你知道结果
有一天我会 插上翅膀飞 有一天我会
张开双眼看 有一天我会 见到我的梦中有谁
有一天我会 飞过世界的背
当太阳升起的那一天 你再看我一遍
你将会发现我 所有的改变
So im back. Been busy playing games lately..haha, and not studying. I hardly touch my sch work these days..haiz. thats bad. As you can see, im been busy playing bf2!! haha...wanna see my pic?? hehe..
So thats wat i became..haha :P
hmm, but things are not that good lately. I think i have been neglecting too many things, and too many people...haiz. Been losing lotsa sleep, as i have to manage sch work and gaming with the guys at nite. hardly get more than 6 hrs of sleep these days. and always dozing off in sch...thats bad. cos cant follow lect. also, i have been skippin some lessons too!! argh...my results are gonna be so bad this sem....and i have only myself to blame..haha. Also, i think i been neglecting my GF!! so sorry dear! i think i must re-adjust myself....haiz. not only my GF, i think i have also been neglecting my friends as well in sch. i got so much catching up to do!
hmm, the game was really fun, and i can enjoy hrs of it. then, we create a clan tag for ourselves. mine was "-=|Proj-D|=-Keisuke". As you can see, its one of the characters from the initial d anime. eh, he is the guy with the most chicks..haha. juz kidding. =P and Proj-D is our clan tag! haha. also from the initial d anime.
but somehow, i personally feel things are not geling well together in the game. we started out fine, with each of us having acquire skills in certain areas. And, mine was the lousiest. What i was good at, wasnt good for the team. Haiz...so i needed to learn something new so to speak. but i am just too sianz to do it. so rather playing like a clan, we have been playing more apart, more alone i should say. Each trying to earn the best score on our own. Im abit demoralise by the whole thing. its hard to explain...my i think i will leave it here. =P so i think i might re-adjusting soon! not gonna play so much liao...since im not of any good use for our clan in the game, it wouldnt make a diff if i played or not yeah! haha...thats wat i figured out..hee. maybe wait till the issue is resolved...or wait till i can learn to do something better...or anything better! hee..
So thats wat i became..haha :P
hmm, but things are not that good lately. I think i have been neglecting too many things, and too many people...haiz. Been losing lotsa sleep, as i have to manage sch work and gaming with the guys at nite. hardly get more than 6 hrs of sleep these days. and always dozing off in sch...thats bad. cos cant follow lect. also, i have been skippin some lessons too!! argh...my results are gonna be so bad this sem....and i have only myself to blame..haha. Also, i think i been neglecting my GF!! so sorry dear! i think i must re-adjust myself....haiz. not only my GF, i think i have also been neglecting my friends as well in sch. i got so much catching up to do!
hmm, the game was really fun, and i can enjoy hrs of it. then, we create a clan tag for ourselves. mine was "-=|Proj-D|=-Keisuke". As you can see, its one of the characters from the initial d anime. eh, he is the guy with the most chicks..haha. juz kidding. =P and Proj-D is our clan tag! haha. also from the initial d anime.
but somehow, i personally feel things are not geling well together in the game. we started out fine, with each of us having acquire skills in certain areas. And, mine was the lousiest. What i was good at, wasnt good for the team. Haiz...so i needed to learn something new so to speak. but i am just too sianz to do it. so rather playing like a clan, we have been playing more apart, more alone i should say. Each trying to earn the best score on our own. Im abit demoralise by the whole thing. its hard to explain...my i think i will leave it here. =P so i think i might re-adjusting soon! not gonna play so much liao...since im not of any good use for our clan in the game, it wouldnt make a diff if i played or not yeah! haha...thats wat i figured out..hee. maybe wait till the issue is resolved...or wait till i can learn to do something better...or anything better! hee..
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Hi people. This is my Battlefield 2's stats!! hahahahhaha...so happy. Finally got it to work..hehe. But its kinda lousy...haha. But cannot laugh at me k! hee. For those ppl who dunno wats all this...its juz me and my craze with games. Its time to be a loner again!! hahahaha...
Friday, July 22, 2005
Hello hello! im finally adding an entry again! haha...its been quite awhile now. hee. Been going thru ppl's blog. notice that they say abit everyday, and not like me! cos i add one whole page!! haha, cos i seldom come mah..hee.
anyway, many things happen during this holiday. i believe the same goes for everyone! hee. and somehow, i feel that i missing out some of my friends cos of me being kinda busy. So friends out there, feel free to msg or ask me out k! hehe..
so this is the holidays. kinda long one too. and i wanted to work this holiday to earn some pocket money. And i did! haha...but it wasnt alot..cos i did many odd jobs..haha. Let me count: 1) Zenitant - educational tour, 2) DBS - Customer service (make it sound nice..hee) 3) Marc Ecko Hip Hop event, 4) one day security guard for NAC (practically did nothing), 5) NTU convocation
Seems like alot right..haha. But i think i earned peanuts leh!! haiz..cos most of my pay are around 6bucks only. But the meeting ppl part was really fun! i made quite a few new friends!! and got to know some older friends better! hee..
Ok, so where did all my money go. well, my com crash on me half way thru the holidays. and it got me really pissed. cos all the pressure at home and stuff. So i spent abt 800 bucks on it, to get a 80% new com! hee..there goes the bulk of my pay. hee. I was really happy with it. but just yesterday i learnt that i may have to part with it!! haiz.. cos dad needs a com to do his work. and his p3 keeps crashing. dad wants to buy a new com, but only willing to pay abt 500 cos he got no money. and 500 cant get u anything much!! haha. so i decided to cover the rest. i will build another com, and my exisitng com will be given to him. kinda sad but bo pian. And i need to fork out more money!! thats the worst part! but im getting my bro to chip in! hee..
hmm, another place that my money went was malaysia!! haa. went to kl and genting with my nus buddies!! hee. And this was my first trip going out with friends alone! normally its either with family or sch! hee. so i was kinda excited abt it. it turned out to be great! kinda enjoyed myself. hee. i think we got alittle closer after the trip. hee. even went to casino..but i lost 100rm! haha. but its for the fun of it lah.hee. err, some exciting stuff we did...we took a bus to chinatown! haha..90cents rm! hee..first time take public bus in kl! i kept the ticket know! hee. and we went ktv too!! haha..kinda cheap. sang from 12am to 4am. guys 2 free drinks and girls one free drink. one person only 23rm!! hee..during the stay, we also made lots of shopping!! haha. the first day of shopping was kinda funny. cos the guys came back with all clothings...and the girls came back with all dvds!! haha. of course, the girls' true nature came back soon after and they bought more clothings later...haha =)
okok, a little of the track. I think im learning how to sing!! haha. cos i really cant previously! haha...but now i feel that i can change my voice when i sing!! not like last time when i sounded like i was toking! hahahaha..but still, my voice always sound like mono tone..haha. so still no gd..haha. dun think i have the talent to sing...haha.
k lah, its time to go slack and enjoy the remainder of my holidays! till next time!!
anyway, many things happen during this holiday. i believe the same goes for everyone! hee. and somehow, i feel that i missing out some of my friends cos of me being kinda busy. So friends out there, feel free to msg or ask me out k! hehe..
so this is the holidays. kinda long one too. and i wanted to work this holiday to earn some pocket money. And i did! haha...but it wasnt alot..cos i did many odd jobs..haha. Let me count: 1) Zenitant - educational tour, 2) DBS - Customer service (make it sound nice..hee) 3) Marc Ecko Hip Hop event, 4) one day security guard for NAC (practically did nothing), 5) NTU convocation
Seems like alot right..haha. But i think i earned peanuts leh!! haiz..cos most of my pay are around 6bucks only. But the meeting ppl part was really fun! i made quite a few new friends!! and got to know some older friends better! hee..
Ok, so where did all my money go. well, my com crash on me half way thru the holidays. and it got me really pissed. cos all the pressure at home and stuff. So i spent abt 800 bucks on it, to get a 80% new com! hee..there goes the bulk of my pay. hee. I was really happy with it. but just yesterday i learnt that i may have to part with it!! haiz.. cos dad needs a com to do his work. and his p3 keeps crashing. dad wants to buy a new com, but only willing to pay abt 500 cos he got no money. and 500 cant get u anything much!! haha. so i decided to cover the rest. i will build another com, and my exisitng com will be given to him. kinda sad but bo pian. And i need to fork out more money!! thats the worst part! but im getting my bro to chip in! hee..
hmm, another place that my money went was malaysia!! haa. went to kl and genting with my nus buddies!! hee. And this was my first trip going out with friends alone! normally its either with family or sch! hee. so i was kinda excited abt it. it turned out to be great! kinda enjoyed myself. hee. i think we got alittle closer after the trip. hee. even went to casino..but i lost 100rm! haha. but its for the fun of it lah.hee. err, some exciting stuff we did...we took a bus to chinatown! haha..90cents rm! hee..first time take public bus in kl! i kept the ticket know! hee. and we went ktv too!! haha..kinda cheap. sang from 12am to 4am. guys 2 free drinks and girls one free drink. one person only 23rm!! hee..during the stay, we also made lots of shopping!! haha. the first day of shopping was kinda funny. cos the guys came back with all clothings...and the girls came back with all dvds!! haha. of course, the girls' true nature came back soon after and they bought more clothings later...haha =)
okok, a little of the track. I think im learning how to sing!! haha. cos i really cant previously! haha...but now i feel that i can change my voice when i sing!! not like last time when i sounded like i was toking! hahahaha..but still, my voice always sound like mono tone..haha. so still no gd..haha. dun think i have the talent to sing...haha.
k lah, its time to go slack and enjoy the remainder of my holidays! till next time!!
Sunday, March 06, 2005
so its a sunday today. and i got a english test tmr. so its not exactly a day u would expect me to type here. and not to mention that i have not been doing so for such a long time! haha...
anyway, im having a flue, and my stomache dont feel so good. thus its a good time to come and release all that fustration here!! haha..ok, maybe not to that extend. hmm, jus taken some medicine. hope i get better soon!! hee..
so wat am i here...i also dunno. juz felt like coming. haha. tmr got this english test, which i am so not confident in. dunno how!! hope i get to sit beside vince or miao so that i can copy!! hehe..well, i also no mood to study. dunno y, been feeling like this all sem. jia lat...cant seem to concentrate or put my heart into studying. this is bad news! argh...i think i am distracted...by all the prbs and stuff going round. hmm, i think part of me wants to go work liao..but the other wants to stay in sch. even my parents are asking me when i am coming out to work!! i think we juz need that extra income. well, i think the slide is still there...just that its a slow one. haiz...so i need to work to get income! holidays are coming..so i need to go find some money too!! haha.
sometimes i feel like i am alone...or maybe i juz dunno where i am or wat i am doing. ppl seem to be studying hard, getting results...well i am slacking..and not really bothering wat kinda results i am getting. the bo chap me is back!! and seeing ppl enjoying their cars, and eating good stuff, spending all that money, makes me feel sick. cos it reminds me of where i am today. oh yah, i also tot of soemthing. maybe why i dislike my car so much...is bcos, its the evidence of where i stand and who i am today. i dislike the position i am in now. the fact that i got to study hard, the fact i got to work to support the family as soon as i graduate, the fact that i got to give up my dreams to do so...the fact that i cant spend money as i like now...all these surrounds my life. and the fact that some how cant share all these with my friends is fustrating. i cant tell these to ppl, without them pitying me or sympathising me. i dun want ppl to pity me...and never want ppl to look down on me...so i choose not to say.
ok thats my life. yupz...life sux...big time. i cant even bring my gf these days...luckily she dont mind...for i really feel so bad...not giving her the best..and providing her the best. i hope life improves...soon.
anyway, im having a flue, and my stomache dont feel so good. thus its a good time to come and release all that fustration here!! haha..ok, maybe not to that extend. hmm, jus taken some medicine. hope i get better soon!! hee..
so wat am i here...i also dunno. juz felt like coming. haha. tmr got this english test, which i am so not confident in. dunno how!! hope i get to sit beside vince or miao so that i can copy!! hehe..well, i also no mood to study. dunno y, been feeling like this all sem. jia lat...cant seem to concentrate or put my heart into studying. this is bad news! argh...i think i am distracted...by all the prbs and stuff going round. hmm, i think part of me wants to go work liao..but the other wants to stay in sch. even my parents are asking me when i am coming out to work!! i think we juz need that extra income. well, i think the slide is still there...just that its a slow one. haiz...so i need to work to get income! holidays are coming..so i need to go find some money too!! haha.
sometimes i feel like i am alone...or maybe i juz dunno where i am or wat i am doing. ppl seem to be studying hard, getting results...well i am slacking..and not really bothering wat kinda results i am getting. the bo chap me is back!! and seeing ppl enjoying their cars, and eating good stuff, spending all that money, makes me feel sick. cos it reminds me of where i am today. oh yah, i also tot of soemthing. maybe why i dislike my car so much...is bcos, its the evidence of where i stand and who i am today. i dislike the position i am in now. the fact that i got to study hard, the fact i got to work to support the family as soon as i graduate, the fact that i got to give up my dreams to do so...the fact that i cant spend money as i like now...all these surrounds my life. and the fact that some how cant share all these with my friends is fustrating. i cant tell these to ppl, without them pitying me or sympathising me. i dun want ppl to pity me...and never want ppl to look down on me...so i choose not to say.
ok thats my life. yupz...life sux...big time. i cant even bring my gf these days...luckily she dont mind...for i really feel so bad...not giving her the best..and providing her the best. i hope life improves...soon.
Thursday, February 17, 2005
